Being A Mom

I was scared when I first found out i was pregnant. Then Josh reassured me things where going to be ok. He said just think about it...we were blessed simply because we didnt have to try very hard like so many do...it's a gift......it was ment to be....Boy was he right!!!
The whole prenancy was fun except for night time sickness which i was glad to part with. Joe was a week late and with some trouble my precious baby boy was here. I can remember thinkin to myself once the drugs wore off "wow, how can i be holding this little life in my hands..oh i hope i dont mess this up!!"
Joseph has changed so much since the first day we brought him home. Before he would just sleep and wake when he was hungry. Now he is awake and laughing and he knows the difference between mommy and daddy. He pets pennie and smiles when she's near. He is still a hungry boy but thats ok....he grabs at things and is eatting baby food. I don't want him to grow up but yet in the same i can't wait to see what he does next. Joshua has made me make him sleep in him crib now. Which was easy for him but hard on me. Joe doesn't seem to mind ethier, he's got more leg room.
I have more love for this little boy then i could have ever possibly imagened. I love him so much to think about it it hurts. I have much more apprecation for my mother. I now know why she would never buy herself anything. It all came to me. I go to the store the first place i go is to the baby department. My mother is a very strong women. A women i could only hope someday to come close to. My mom is the best person i know. She'd do anything for me and now i get it because i would do anything for Joe.
All and all dirty diapers aren't that bad, feeding him every 2 hours is just a scheduling challenge but watchin Joe grow up so fast is hard knowing everyday he's closer to being independant and on his way out into the big world. I'll miss his sweet little toothless grin and silly little laugh. But i look foward to seeing the man he'll become and enjoying all the memories we'll make on the way. So from one mom to another i feel your sadness but I'll rejoice with you as our babies make all the great milestones in life... Being a mom is truely a blessing.....